With All My Heart
I always feel like I need to figure things out. My brain rarely stops calculating and planning. I waste so much energy trying to micromanage things God already has for me.
What’s more I miss the rest He wants me to experience by trying to rework what He’s already doing.
Is this just me?
When I became a Mom the work load doubled because I try to anticipate and work out all their circumstances.
It’s not my job.
I’m working this week on laying it down. I know this will be a repeat procedure.
Pick it up. Put it down.
Things are not in my hands. I know this deep down...that if I try to catch them all I never do. I can't reach all the places I need my hands to go...
they are not in my reach.
I’m thankful that His hands are much bigger. I'm focusing on trusting Him with all my heart and releasing the habit of trying to figure everything out on my own.
This is the Message Version of Proverbs 3:5&6. Something about it just clicks with me. I want to hear God's voice in everything I do, but I have to still my heart to hear it. I have to stop trying so hard and start listening harder.
I don't know how long this will take me, but I am going to form this new habit. I have a suspicion that it will be the rest of my days on this earth. It doesn't matter. I'm in because I want to experience more peace and I know it is available to me. Jesus promised., and I believe Him (John 14:27).
This is my prayer.
I'm keeping it on repeat.
I have to remind myself that I trust God more than I trust me.